Throughout my life, up until very recently, I was totally oblivious to meanings of what I now consider two very important words. One is vulnerability. The other is authenticity. I never thought about them as a crucial part of one’s happiness. Frankly, I didn’t think about them at all. They were simply not on my mental and spiritual radar.
That’s probably why I wasn’t as happy as I desired. Yes, I’ve seen the improvement of my happiness over the years. But not until I realized what vulnerability and authenticity are all about I was able to make a substantial leap in the quality of my emotional life.
The fact that I wasn’t able to grasp neither vulnerability nor authenticity stems from the fact that I wasn’t willing to face my same-sex attraction head-on. I swept it under the rug and thought everything is fine. Thankfully, through examples of other faithful gay men, I was able to carefully unpack my emotions and bring them closer to reality.
To call one of those men same-sex attracted many, if not most people would find preposterous. He is Jesus Christ, the Son of God.
Millions with homosexual feelings
There is a very special piece of doctrine of the LDS church which unequivocally proves that Jesus must have had feelings of same-sex attraction. According to the Doctrine and Covenants 88:6, Jesus Christ “ascended up on high, as also he descended below all things, in that he comprehended all things, that he might be in all and through all things, the light of truth”.
What does that mean? In the Gethsemane, our Savior went through excruciating pain. As He was taking upon Himself all the sins and pain of the world, He bled from every pore. He experienced anguish and suffering of the same quantity and quality as every mortal who have ever lived or will ever live on this Earth. And that includes all the millions with homosexual feelings.
Jesus Christ was the epitome of vulnerability and authenticity. And He knows exactly how I feel. He understands me.